video love

my dear friend bobbie made a beautiful video of bob and i. love this so much, and i will cherish it forever.

i will post the link here, because the video won't upload.

Video

travel town, lunch, and walk

my wonderful father came up this weekend and watched bob while we were at a wedding on saturday and today we went to travel town, lunch, then took a walk around lake hollywood...

computer and coffee

i'm sitting on the floor this morning, coffee next to my computer and the baby laying on the floor next to me in the boppy. my heart is filled with so much love and joy for this baby. as he lays next to me sleeping, i started singing "you are my sunshine" to him and i got quite a few smiles while his eyes rolled in the back of his head . i didn't know prior to being a mama that it was possible to love someone/ something so much. 

anywhoo. today the hubs and i are going to a wedding. my dad is coming up to take care of bob while we are gone. the two of them have such a special bond. it's really sweet. this is our second time leaving bob with a "sitter" and as much as i totally trust my dad, it is still super hard to leave him. i'm sure once bob gets older that will stop, and at some point i will be happy to get out sans baby. there is still some guilt right now, and i feel like bob is too young to be left alone. silly right? i am still going to try and be positive, and enjoy the fact that i get to spend some time with my wonderful husband alone. i'm sure we will have a blast.

here is bob's 11 week photo along with some others.

journal day #5

danielle over at sometimes sweet is doing a weekly journal prompt, so i thought i'd jump on the bandwagon and write a response to her journal prompt. it sounds fun, and gives me something to do while i pump. 

this week her journal prompt is: 

Here's this week's prompt-  

We all encounter challenges on a daily basis. You may consider yours something small, like having enough time in the day to accomplish everything you set out to do, or it may be a bit bigger- perhaps something you have to overcome mentally or emotionally, or even a struggle when dealing with a difficult person. Whatever the case, take a look at your daily life- what would you say is your biggest challenge? Or if you have a past struggle you were able to overcome, how did you do it? This week, write about a challenge you currently deal with on a day to day basis, or discuss one you managed to get past.

ok, so here i go. i would have to say my biggest challenge right now on a daily basis is getting things done around the house. i never knew previous to having a baby how hard it would be to do simple chores such as fold laundry, do dishes, and cook dinner. my son will be 11 weeks this friday and i still struggle to get things done. i thought it would get easier once the weeks went on but it doesn't. when he isn't sleeping he loves to be held otherwise he tends to get pretty fussy. i love holding my baby,i really do. but it's left me with a gigantic never ending pile of laundry that needs to be folded and a constant small amount of dirty dishes that needs to be washed. 

everyone says to ignore the laundry, and ignore the dishes but it absolutely drives me crazy. our schedule is so crazy right now and that's probably because we don't really have one. between feeding, pumping, doctor appointments, naps, and mommy and me groups it's hard to set things in stone right now. i should probably listen and let it all go, because i don't think it's something i'll get past anytime soon. at least i'm getting to spend some wonderful time with my new baby boy. 

his first st. patty's

happy st.patricks day!!!!!

we went over to say hi to our neighbor veda. 

after taking many pictures of them, they were totally over it.

our struggle with breastfeeding

wow what a struggle breastfeeding has been. it started off great, but then slowly got harder and harder. when bob was 3 days old, his doctor told us he had jaundice. which then, our pediatrician asked us to supplement with formula. soon after that my supply tanked. it was hard enough being told i would have to use formula, but then having my milk supply go way down which really sucked. 

as soon as bob turned 6 weeks, the jaundice was gone, and i really wanted nothing more than to kick the formula to the curb and to exclusively breastfeed. so i decided it was time to meet with a lactation consultant. i met with linda hannah who works with my nursing coach . she did tell me that my supply was low, and suggested some supplements as well as using an sns. for those of you  who don't know what an sns is, i highly recommend googling it. i had never heard of or had seen one of these things previous to her showing it to me. weird little contraption. it worked great at first, but then once bob got wise to it, it no longer worked. 

so i decided what's best for us is to nurse, then give him a bottle, then pump. right now he's an eating machine. 2oz of breast an 2oz of formula from the bottle, then he's also getting whatever it is from when he nurses. 

it's a looonnnnnng process, but it is currently what works best for us. i love my boy so much, and will do whatever it takes to keep him healthy, which right now he is perfect. 

we also got this amazing opportunity to do a video shoot with what to expect when you're expecting. our lovely lactation consultant recommended me to be in the video with her. we 3 different breastfeeding videos with bob, linda, and heidi murkoff. such a wonderful and fun experience. i also ended up doing a bottle feeding video, as well as packing a diaper bag. bob and i had an absolute blast. bob also made a little friend. it was really sweet. 

Bob is two months!!!!!!!

craaaaazzzyyy! i can't believe my sweet bob is two months already. i am so lucky to be this boys mama. these past two months have been flying by. it seems like only yesterday that the hubs and i were on our way to the hospital. 

bob now weighs 9 lbs 10 oz, and is 22 inches long!! he's getting so big!!!! even his little chicken legs are starting to put on weight. he still has his beautiful blue eyes, but that light hair of his is getting darker.

he also finally started smiling, and cooing. seeing that smile makes my hard delivery all worth it. he likes when we talk to him and he likes when his dad does silly voices. he's even sleeping through the night now!!!! even though he sleeps really well, i am constantly waking up checking on him. i heard that want to check constantly never goes away. 

so.much.love.