3 months of bob!

today bob is 3 months!!!! holy guacamole, where did the time go? 
bob has grown SO much. i'm not sure how much exactly, he has his 3 month doctor appointment tomorrow. the hubs and i measured him ourselves and he looks to be around 23.5 inches, and weighs about 12 pounds. love my little chunker. 

• he sleeps through the night now. usually from 10pm-7am. it's really nice.
• when sleeping he loves to have his face pushed up against mine. almost like he wants to feel me breathing. anyone else's babes do this?
• he still sleeps a lot through the day. but that's ok. that gives me time to get things done.
• he started laughing! it's the BEST thing ever. he has only laughed for me twice, but he thinks his dad is hilarious. laughs at him all the time. especially when singing silly songs.
• he is always smiling. except when i try and take pictures of him. i guess he's camera shy?
• he's eating tons now. anywhere between 4-6 oz a feeding. probably because he's growing like a weed.
• he still also hates tummy time. 

since last saturday bob has been super fussy. lots of crying, and whining, and wanting to be snuggled. also super fussy with the pacifier and the bottle. i'm guessing it's a growth spurt. i felt around in his mouth and i couldn't feel any bumps under his gums, so i don't think that's what it is. i'm hoping he starts acting less fussy soon. i miss my cuddly happy baby. 

on a sad note of it all, we are quitting breastfeeding. we've been struggling with bf from the start. our routine was nursing, then a bottle, then i would pump for an hour. by the time it was all done, it was time to feed him and start the whole process over again. being hooked up to the pump for 8+ hours a day isn't fair to bob or myself so i decided it was best to start to wean, so i could spend more time with him. i'm still working on weaning which is pretty hard. emotionally and physically. i still am pumping but only 2-3 times a day as apposed to 6+. i get to spend much more time with him now which is great. i have to keep reminding myself that i made it to 3 months of breastfeeding. which is GREAT! i should be proud of myself. he will continue getting the stuff i am pumping until my supply is dried out, then i will give him my freezer stash. he will probably have breast milk until 3.5 months which will take us to the end of flu season. sad it's over, but go me for making it this far!

our struggle with breastfeeding

wow what a struggle breastfeeding has been. it started off great, but then slowly got harder and harder. when bob was 3 days old, his doctor told us he had jaundice. which then, our pediatrician asked us to supplement with formula. soon after that my supply tanked. it was hard enough being told i would have to use formula, but then having my milk supply go way down which really sucked. 

as soon as bob turned 6 weeks, the jaundice was gone, and i really wanted nothing more than to kick the formula to the curb and to exclusively breastfeed. so i decided it was time to meet with a lactation consultant. i met with linda hannah who works with my nursing coach . she did tell me that my supply was low, and suggested some supplements as well as using an sns. for those of you  who don't know what an sns is, i highly recommend googling it. i had never heard of or had seen one of these things previous to her showing it to me. weird little contraption. it worked great at first, but then once bob got wise to it, it no longer worked. 

so i decided what's best for us is to nurse, then give him a bottle, then pump. right now he's an eating machine. 2oz of breast an 2oz of formula from the bottle, then he's also getting whatever it is from when he nurses. 

it's a looonnnnnng process, but it is currently what works best for us. i love my boy so much, and will do whatever it takes to keep him healthy, which right now he is perfect. 

we also got this amazing opportunity to do a video shoot with what to expect when you're expecting. our lovely lactation consultant recommended me to be in the video with her. we 3 different breastfeeding videos with bob, linda, and heidi murkoff. such a wonderful and fun experience. i also ended up doing a bottle feeding video, as well as packing a diaper bag. bob and i had an absolute blast. bob also made a little friend. it was really sweet.